Keeping up

Today was a short morning.
I woke up with my alarm instead of before it, and was slow and sleepy all morning… I got extremely distracted and behind schedule.

I was supposed to go pick up wedding bands, but, once again, late morning… and forgot my nephew was coming over for lunch5He comes over once a week now, to play God of War and to leech some food, since he’s been living in a student dorm sort of thing and paying for his own food with his part time job for a couple months now. and the apartment was a disaster zone, so I better spared myself the anxiety and decided to leave that for tomorrow; I also procrastinated on sending a message to the lady I got recommended for the cakes. Will have to do that tomorrow morning as well.

Instead I played around with an old drawing and did a bit of digital value/grayscale painting with a hard brush, to keep up with the practice/study streak. It was pretty fun!
I don’t know if I dig the hard brush that much, but I’ll try finishing the whole image like that.
I tend to be rather scared of grayscale/value passes on illustrations, for some reason… I used to do them when I was I college, and sometimes I’d do them for certain things, but in the end I decided it was an unnecessary extra step. Wrong. It’s an important step! And good value passes look really pretty, so I’ll try making some of those more often :)
After lunch, I finished another old character profile art for this RPG and started another.

I didn’t get as much done today as I wanted. I don’t really like it when my brain is all for finding excuses to get distracted… I think it’s probably part self sabotage and part laziness: laziness for obvious reasons, and self sabotage because I had a lot of things to do and I kept getting anxious and threatening to scream and abandon ship.
In those cases I take a deep breath, grab some pen and paper and make a list. I never get to do all what’s on the list, but I try and it helps me get less overwhelmed and be more confident on being able to handle things.6I hate that I get overwhelmed with so little… My theory is that I’m just permanently almost-overwhelmed, so just a little bit more sends me over the edge “Orz
A good thing as well is to just start/resume the routine. No matter how late it is, how screwed the routine is, doing *something* instead of sending everything to hell helps a lot. In the end, it may not have been a 5 billable hours work day, but it was a 3 billable hours day and not a 0 one!

I still very much lack discipline.
I seriously need to improve on that area.