Better than ever.
(I’m into Homestuck now, didn’t you know? I blame my friend Lyra for it…)
So I’ve been panicking and freaking out over stuff lately. Problems here, issues there, stress stress stress.
And I want to get out of here and have my own place and not have to work on the livingroom and yadda yadda yadda.
But you know… I was reading old blog entries and I see that I’ve come so far! I’m *way* better than I was last year and the year before that one, not only artistically, but as a person too. I used to be so emo about stuff all the time (I still emo over stuff but not nearly as much as I used to), get depressed, get all blah and not get any work done whatsoever and just… meh. I was surprised about how… immature, irresponsible and meh with life I was before.
Now, I’m so happy! I mean, yeah, I’m not the happiest human being or anything, there are still things I don’t like and stuff I rage/emo about, but I’m happy where I am and I’m happy that I have the… talent? skill? gift? to do many things I enjoy doing! I wish I could have felt like this years before, but hey, i’m feeling like that now and that’s good enough! Life is right now
Some time ago somebody was asking people “when did you get serious about drawing?”. I was never serious. Looking at my old blog entries, I was always meh about stuff. I’d have moments when I wanted to improve, but I lost interest quickly and I wasn’t even trying! It seems I started liking to draw again when I got into Vocaloid, and then all the way to this year. This year has been great, I’ve got so many cool projects I’m working on, I have the videogame course, and I’m so eager to do things! It’s awesome. Seriously. And it shows in my art, I’ve been improving a lot and I’m enjoying it more than ever.
Life can be crappy sometimes, have its up and downs, and even if you have no idea of what to do with your life and stuff, eventually you’ll get to it. It may take time, it may be hard on you for any reason (Even if just you being emo and depressed about everything), but eventually it gets good, and the good things shine brighter than ever and the bad and meh things just can’t hide them anymore
So yeah, I wanted to get that out of my system (:
Talking about awesome stuff, my KungFu Panda 2 artbook is finally in my hands and I love it so much <3 I really enjoy looking at Nicolas Marlet’s sketches, they’re so pretty! ;o;
Last weekend me, my boyfriend and a couple of friends stayed at another friend’s apartment to watch Blizzcon. I simply *adore* the Art, Technical art and Lore panels ;o; Now that I understand some more about 3D, the cinematics panel was especially cool. I hope one day I can save enough money to go there and see the artist panels that don’t get shown on the digital stream! I reallyw ant to see those super talented guys do their art live!
And today, today I watched Homestuck’s End of Act 5 flash which was awesome and omg my feelings (and couldn’t resist to draw that Jade up there, her outfit is just <3 ) and this afternoon I have animation class.
I’m in such a good mood today! ^o^
Now I need to go take a shower and work on some character designs for our class group project (: (I procrastinate on those a lot, they’re so hard >o<! )
Tags: artbook, drawing, fanart, good times, happy, realization, sketch